Just Gimme a Break Here!!

     One thing I really hate about life is having to walk around all smiley and happy go lucky when there's a load of world on your shoulders.  I've been feeling that way a lot lately; having to just grin and bear it just ain't my style, but it seems it's all I've really been able to do recently.  Seems to be the usual, same 'ol same 'ol stuff, but with an extra dose of blah mixed in with it.  Maybe not blah.  Maybe it's just the lack of patience I've been experiencing.  I know...it's my own fault.  But I'm not perfect, and at least I see what it is.  Seems as though the school (I've started two new classes that are the hardest BY FAR) load is building, the pressure to find the perfect house and move before the lease is up is building, had to get my taxes done (it's pretty complicated...not just a 1040EZ for here) for the lender as well as filling out the new FASFA forms, kid stuff...seems the list just goes on and on.  Now add to that list getting about 100 forms put together of financial records for the lender and now the waiting game.  Oh and throw in two HUGE papers due (that I haven't even started) and baby girl's birthday weekend up ahead which means making the birthday cake, shopping, and wrapping.  Plus all the extra stuff that goes along with a little princess turning 7.  Fun times ahead!  It's 2 in the morning before I blink, then I'm up and out the door by 5:45 to go work out and start the day.  I. Am. Crazy!!
     I really feel some moments I'm gonna just bust...and take everyone with me!  But.  I do have so many blessings to focus on, and that's what really keep me going.  A God full of mercy and grace who wants nothing but the best for me.  I have an incredible family that gets me outta bed everyday.  The love of a man that is the answer to a billion prayers...and then so much more.  Three kids that are every parents dream.  A roof over our head.  Bills paid.  Full bellies.  Fun.  Laughter.  Memories made and being made everyday.  What more does a girl need??
     I guess if I've been a little spacey, stressed, tired, irritated, down, zoned out, or frustrated, I apologize.  I just ask that you put yourself in my shoes...then run.  Run like the wind!!  I'm kidding...all of this is just temporary, right??  RIGHT??  Sometimes it's hard putting yourself in someone else's shoes.  Just remember...chances are, they are probably just trying to make it through the day.  Give 'em a break.         

Caution...You've Been Warned!

     Why in the world do the suits behind the desks make buying a home so difficult?  I realize that banks and such can't loan tons of money to certain people; no paying your bills=no home for you.  Easy to understand.  But.  And I'm just ranting here...I take care of my business.  I have my stuff together.  I would like to purchase a home.  Why can't it be easy??  There are 47 hoops a girls gotta jump through; when I'm warn out from that I find out there's 12 more to go.  All while everything else is going on...work, school, kids, worrying about my mom, etc...blah blah blah.  But what's one more thing...ain't no hill for a high stepper though, right?  Why move, you may ask?  You may bring up that the current place of residence has many high points: location, size, neighborhood, neighbors...but when a house payment is less than half of rent (rent guaranteed to go up every year) why the heck not??  I've worked my tail end off (not really~I'd hate to lose my tushy cause I like it) to get my credit back to where it needs to be after some unfortunate events, save money for a down payment, get paperwork together.  If you ask me, I should have to call security guards to come sit outside my door to fend off lenders.  Remember those commercials where those people would interview bankers dressed up in suits in their house?  Totally should be like that...if only TV were more like real life...
     Okay.  After spilling my opinions for a moment, I actually feel better.  Sorry you had to read it.  But glad you did.  Hopefully before too long...after waiting on others to do their part (a skill I DO NOT posses) and possibly someone somewhere dancing around with chicken blood I'll be blogging about being a new homeowner.  I'm inhaling now to hold my breath...